Help!!!

I don't even know why I'm writing this, no one is listening (reading it). I can't keep going like this. I've battled for so long, someone please help. Why is it so hard to ask for help? I just need someone to hug me and reassure me that this shit won't last. I don't have that person, or at least, I don't feel able to ask my friends/family to do that for me. They have enough of their own shit to deal with.